Onizukaman

I do not appreciate being called anti-social. I’m not trying to be. I’m nervous. There is a stark difference between the two. To be anti-social is to actively not want to socialize, whereas to be nervous is to be scared of socializing. Something I’ve always been, to an extent.   I’m trying to curb it. I’m trying to get better with it. But when people call me derogatory terms based off anxiety I start to take it the wrong way. And that doesn’t help getting better in any way. In any sense, it has quite the opposite effect. When people put me down for something I’m trying to rectify it makes me do a dou

Sometime's I feel like I'm in a sempiternal solitude.. I feel like nobody cares, and nobody ever will... I'm in a state of Limbo.. not the black and white game world, But a state of mind... A state of mind that borders on happy and sad.. And doesn't really shift... I have nobody to talk to, They're all gone... Nobody to turn to, They've all turned away... I hold my knife to my throat, Wondering, Wondering if it'd be the right thing to do... But my mind doesn't work, It's in Limbo... My hand isn't moving, And I'm just sat there, With a blade in my hand wondering, Wondering if I should go for eternity... Wondering...

You are like a rose, A beautiful piece of nature. But just like a rose, You are covered in thorns, That stick and jag as I try to get close. But when I get close, I can see your beauty. It has taken many scars and a lot of blood, But I still see you as the beautiful piece of nature you are.

This is my dream. This may never be reality. To live in a world of peace and equality. To live in a world without corruption and brutality. We do not need to live this way. Everyone says what they wanna say, no matter what the consequences may be. They always say life is like a rose garden. Beautiful but full of thorns. The world is not even beautiful anymore. They used to say make love not war. War is basically a permanent thing now. I don't see very much loving happening. My dream is to live peacefully. Is that too hard these days? I am close to giving up on society, And I hope i am not the only one. Who shares this ideology.